Friday, October 16, 2009

FACE YOUR FEARS............
You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face… The danger lies in refusing to face the fear, in not daring to come to grips with it… You must make yourself succeed every time. You must do the thing you think you cannot do.

today I did a 30 mile run on the Alameda creek trail. It's flat and it's just what I need to get the leg turnover for SF1day next weekend. I will be running circles around Chrissy field. Should be fun.
I have been reconnecting through FB lately with a lot of old friends. I kinda disappeared 15 years ago when I got off of drugs. I left quite a few people who I really liked and were close to hanging all these years. I really did disappear. Stopped calling these people and went into hiding.
So rumors surfaced years later...I was totally normal and running marathons.
hmmm normal..I don't think so I like to think I'm a little wacky and colorful and dearing but normal ..I don't think so...I may have been thought to be normal to a goth, I guess. Maybe because I didn't have black hair and pasty white skin.
Oh and FYI I'm not running marathons I run Ultra marathons..Thank you very much :-)
well in any case I am me. I reinvented myself to fit in with who I am now. And I am happy with the new and improved me.
I did a lot of soul searching to find out who I am and what I want. I am far from perfect and am always learning new lessons in life.
And the biggest lesson is to be happy with who I have become.

Thank you Facebook for allow all these wonderful friends to find me and to see who I really am.


trailturtle said...

Hi Catra,
First, bravo...You SHOULD be happy with who you have become--you are quite an inspiration.
Second, I'm not sure there is such a thing as "perfect", but if one were to ever think that he/she had achieved a world still full of adventure and opportuunity, what then? There would be nothing left to challenge, no reason to "face your fears"..."reach out"...or have a "vision."
Let's all be glad that we are "far from perfect"---it just means that we have many more wonderful lessons in life to learn and share with others!
Thanks for the reminder...all the best, Ann

ultrarunner (Brian Philpot) said...

I love u'r out look on life better today! I am punk rocker turn ultraunner. life is better when u see allside's of life!